You’re sitting somewhere – you may choose your location – and suddenly you make eye contact with someone at the other side of the room. The insecurities begin. Despite the fact that they have never been of interest in the past, you’re suddenly very aware of their presence, since you want to know if they’re looking. You turn back to see. They dart away. Aha! Evidence! Then again, did you not just look back, even though you’ve never taken an interest before?

Ah, the plot thickens. 

You attempt to decipher it. Was it a look of desire? Did you choose the wrong outfit? Or, was it just a coincidence, like it was you seeing him/her in the first place, and you’ve become a paranoid loser, locking you and your counterpart into an eye-contact tango that may never cease? 

What, have you never had that? 

I have, and it’s one of the most aggravating experiences on the planet. Never does one feel so vain, and yet so insecure at the same time. And, most of the time, it is just that two poor people have made eye contact by some weird twist of fate. But I suppose that just shows the human brain, doesn’t it? 

Well, I mentioned in my last entry that I would go into that scenario in more detail, and there we go. I would go into even more depth, but that would just turn into more sentimental bullshit. And, while I very much enjoy it, sometimes it may push other people too far. 

So, as you’ve probably not noticed, I’ve actually written this blog in advanced and scheduled it for lift off. That is because today, as you are reading it, and assuming you’re reading it on Sunday 18th October, I’m in Italy. Yes, Italy. Sweet, sweet Italy. The land of culture, the renaissance, religion etc. I also heard they’ll be cute boys and shopping, but this was only mentioned in passing. The point is that this means that I can’t exactly pick out something that I’ve been thinking about over the week, so I decided to do something different instead. Which, apparently, will be fun.

This is just something where you’ll get to know me better. I have this thing, you see, where I connect memories with songs. For the next 10 songs on my iTunes shuffle, I shall place it on here, and tell you a memory to do with it. If I don’t actually have a memory, then I’ll naturally skip. So it’s the next 10 most significant songs. I think. Well here it is:

1. Bubbly – Colbie Caillat: The sci-fi drama, Doctor Who. The first time I heard this song was watching a video a friend sent me of the 9th Doctor and Rose. They’re the most adorable couple. Anyway, this song always reminds me of them, the lighter part of the ‘relationship’ anyway. So that was dorky.

2. What Are You Waiting For? – Gwen Stefani: Being twelve (?) with my sister. My sister found a download site – this was before we had decent internet and the actual ability to find decent download sites – and we got the music video for this. There’s about a nine minute intro to the original one. I remember it was one of the few songs we listened to back then. I wasn’t really able to buy music, and we only got like a few videos on the Windows Media Player. 

3. Sail Away – David Gray: A sentimental one – and you should be honoured that I’m sharing this with you. I had just shared a ride with someone I was very fond of about a year back. I came home practically in delirium, to which my mother kept asking, ‘Why are you so happy?’ and then commanding Molly to ‘get her to tell you why she’s so happy.’ I then strolled into my room and played this song at full blast. There’s nothing like David Gray to feed a longing for love. I told you I going to get the ones with memories. No skipping here.

4. Hey Sexy Lady – Shaggy Ft. Sean Paul: Told you: no skipping. This reminds me of getting ready for a night out. I always found that I’d have to give myself a confidence boost, since you’re never gonna get pulled if you mope around the place. Sooo the result was simple: dance around to ‘sexy’ music. Embarrassing, I know, but it actually works. Nothing gets hips moving more than this genre.

5. A House Is Not A Home – Brook Benton: Lazy Sunday evenings at home with my family when I was younger. This also applies to songs like Two Shots. These are just oldies that my parents would play in the living room, and I usually could still hear it from upstairs. Oddly enough, it got me really interested in old songs. I used to imagine myself singing to the song – yes, it is a man singing, but is that really the point? It always makes me feel cosy, because it reminds me of being younger and happier. Damn it, there’s the sentimental crap again!

6. Sitting On The Dock Of A Bay – Otis Reading: Car drives with my mum. She used to put on Magic FM, and I secretly never minded. As I said in my previous posts, I actually like old songs. I remember this was one of my favourites. I particularly remember this when I went to one of my primary schools – Hampton Court House – because I would be with George, and he would try to whistle at one part. To be fair, I wasn’t any better at it. 

7. Against All Odds – Phil Collins: MOVIE MOMENT! Sorry, but there’s another thing with me and music. I like to day dream, and I often see movie scenarios. In this scene, one member of the romance would be alone in the rain, but the fog will clear after the chorus, and then you see the other one. This would result in a reunion of the two. (AWWWW) 

8. Man I Feel Like A Woman – Shania Twain: Another me and my sister thing when we were younger. For this, we actually attempted to ACT OUT a music video. We’d steal the washing-up gloves from the kitchen (it makes sense in more detail) and dance around the place. I think there may even have been a dance involved, but I’ve forgotten it now. To this day, I still do the head toss when the background voice goes ‘uh!’ in the first verse. 

9. From Paris To Berlin – Infernal: Working on a fake advertisement for ‘D Grade’ in Year 9. I was sitting on the bus ride to a friend’s house from school, and the friend I was sitting next to introduced me to the song. She was v. much into that kind of music. She also introduced me to artists like DJ Boonie, though I think she’s much more into hardcore grime than anything. Still, I remember bopping around the place.

10. Sooner Or Later – Doreen Lundy: MOVIE MOMENT. This would be in a period drama – as it was a song from the 40s. The two main characters would be dancing in the living room alone. This is where one of them realises that they love the other – though the other won’t know it yet. They would move closer, not even thinking about the fact that the guy would have to get shipped off to fight the good fight. 

So you guys have seen a much dorkier side of me. Ah well, enjoy it! x

Aim For Next Week: Make a good memory. It’s discovery week, so MAKE THE MOST OF IT! I’d hate to think of you coming back with regrets and sorrow.